He Walks Away..

The tears run down his face,
His bags are packed,
He takes one last look around,
As he goes to gets the door handle,
He pulls the door open and takes a step outside,
As he breaths the fresh air and shuts the door behind him,
He walks out of his drive away and stops.
Turns around looks at the house he’s spent most of his life in,
Turns back around, tears still streaming down his face,
And walks away into the distance...

Thank You

Thank you for being there for me...

Thank you for making me smile & giggle...

Thank you for understanding me... (well trying too)

Thank you for making me so who I am...

Thank you for everything you've given me...

Thank you for being you!

Just something i decided to write...

Anyway today is Justin's Birthday and he is 15. He had a nice day really quiet which was nice so yer thanks to everyone. Thank you Kathryn for my wonderful pressents i love you so much <3

Hmm picture of the night...

Negativity..

This week I have felt really drained physically and emotionally really.. This is going to be a short blog because I have a headache and yer.

This last week there has been so much going on really. Last week I had shows Wednesday and Thursday and rehearsals Monday and Tuesday and they really pulled my stuffing out. Friday was cadets and wasn’t so bad, although Jamie didn’t turn up meaning we had to cancel quiz training.

I’ve been so negative this last weeks and I’ve really suffered (stop reading now because I’m a selfish git and this where I moan) I’ve been negative about everything, I got a D in maths and I’m not happy there. I also got my science module results today did okay but not good enough, got
Physics: C
Biology: C
Chemistry: D (One mark of a C) :@
So I’ve pushed myself, I also got a low C in psychology which isn’t good when I’ve been getting A’s / A*’s in them lessons hmm.

Anyway got something to look forward to, I get to see Kathryn Thursday night which will be great. We’ve got though a little rough match but I think it’s sorted, I never want to lose her she is my world I love her so much. (Only words to you readers but my feelings to me)

Anyway off I go, I’ve got to do some Psychology coursework for tomorrow and I don’t understand one bit. Odea..

Tonight picture is my granny and my uncle at her 80th birthday last year what a smile hey?

I took the photo on my phone from the video camera screen...

I’ll Think of a title...

This week has been well let’s be honest, crap. This week has been so low for me inside. It’s just built up this week inside and seemed to I just don’t know really. Monday night was a bit of a heart breaker for me to be honest. Mum and dad we’re arguing meaning I heard most of it and I feel so guilty I really do. If I wasn’t here they would be so much happier. Kath and I have had a bit of a crap week really. We’ve been having our little arguments again over nothing really. I’ve also been trying to stick my nose in when I really shouldn’t of into Kath’s problems. I’m so sorry. We nearly lost everything we’ve got Saturday at Laurens party and if I’m honest I really don’t know what I would do if I ever lost her. She has changed me for the good, made my life worth living and she is so wonderful. I’m the luckiest guy on earth to have her in my life, not just as my girlfriend but as one as my closet best friends. Laurens party was a laugh sorry if we ruined it a bit.

Sunday I went swimming with the family. Well they argued over everything so I decided to swim off and just swim up and down the pool keeping away. Today was Monday. Had double PE this morning which was great then RE and I got told to keep my ideas inside as he couldn’t answer them. Maths was rubbish English was okay and Biology was okay. Crew was pointless I went around putting up posters! Now I’m typing this boring you all together while listening to music and talking to Kathryn. Anyway get to see her tomorrow evening (YAY) as we are off to see just the two of us at school. Then its Wicked on Wednesday. So it’s okay.

Well here is tonight’s picture.

This was Justin after he couldn't find his keys, they was pluged intot he computer...

Hello strangers!

Hello, bet you don’t even know who I am since I haven’t blogged for ages. So much has been going on its unbelievable. Okay when did we last blog is my first question, since the 9th march! That’s nearly a month ago! So anyway I’ll tell you about my nearly a month well bits of it. I’m not planning on writing an essay. But knowing me it will turn into one!

Okay this month hasn’t been too good if I’m to tell the truth. Family have been going through a very rough patch and Kathryn and I have also been going through a rough patch. But I’m happy to say Kath and I came out of it stronger than ever. Well I think so anyway. As for family that’s a different story and I’m not willing to go into it as it brings me down. (Mental note: I hate sky broadband, as it has dropped out again...) There has been times where I have felt like playing in the road last month and times where I have felt on top of the world. (It seems my emotions are having a war) I’ve got too thanks Kathryn in particular for standing by me though everything and being there for a shoulder to cry on. Sorry for everything I’ve put you through over March I’m so glad we sorted everything out.

So whats happend over March then? Well its Easter holidays and I went to France for 3 days and 2 nights. I hated it to be quite honest with you. I was ill for the trip and I really didn’t enjoy it. Another reason I hated it was because there was some what’s the word? Up themselves pigs on the trip. The ones that look down there nose at you because you don’t use big words or can’t spell or don’t like talking about GCSEs, grades etc. Being ill made me feel so grrrr because I felt that I was letting down the group really. Easter was okay I got fat... even more so. But I think Easter was before France confused. (Need sugar really) We had a whole day of quiz training Saturday before county’s and we won the county competitions. Now we’re off to regionals on the 25th May. The last week of the Easter holidays was AMAZING! Why? Because I spent it with Kathryn. Monday was her birthday and I really had a good day and I think she did to. She loved her necklace that I was umming and arring over for ages but she loves it. Tuesday I was at hers all day. Wednesday she was at mine all day. Thursday we met up in the evening at forum which was a laugh. Friday she spent the day round mine last minute as we were going into town to do some shopping but my nan couldn’t baby sit due to she had pancreatitis again. But she’s fine now. Friday was a diji cam day and we took loads of pics. (I’ll post a couple.) Weekend was rubbish and so was Monday really.

Today was first day back of school. I hated it. It was too long, dull and humid. Tomorrow is another day and we’ll see what it holds. I’m sorry Kath for tonight I love you so much I really do. You mean the world to me <3

Below are a few pics from my Easter break. Oh and I promise I will blog more often!!

France Is Below

Us. The colourful one was done in PC world on a Mac and i took a photo on my phone.

Justin Got Snow In Tractor Land!

Everything Was So Perfect...

Indeed it was. I’ve spent the evening with Kathryn which was just perfect it really was but then I had to come home...

It was all fine until I opened by big fat mouth. I said to dad are you going to come to the show (I’ve been working on for a couple of days) and he goes ‘I dunno’ then mum turns round and says ‘of course he isn’t, means he has to take time off work’ now they are arguing and I feel bad for starting it all off and they are still at it now and what’s the point.
The links below are links to a songs that I feel like right now,

http://youtube.com/watch?v=tHXZ_peJe9c
http://youtube.com/watch?v=o2DWYcS2OuY

Sorry for not blogging for a while theres been so much going on...

Keep Going

I wouldn’t read this post unless you want to become bored.

Basically I’m going to let how I feel out. At this current point in time I feel crap. This last week I’ve let all my problems build up because I’ve been helping others with there’s and just keeping me busy. Well this weekend it’s just built up and I need to let it out. Sorry if I sound self centred and selfish it’s true but yer I’m sorry.

I constantly feel down and crap. Home life is crap; probably because I cause the problems me and my sister contently argues and I really hate it. Inside it burns me so much when we do argue I try and make an effort not to argue and it gets thrown back in my face. I know she hates me and I know people all say “all brothers and sisters are like that” but no it’s not the same we have never been close maybe because I was jealous when we were younger but then that’s me all over - jealous. Mum and Dad are constantly at each other’s throats even when they’re not together there back stabbing one another it does my head in.

Friends seem to be having a lot of problems recently and I really feel that I am making things worse for them with the advice I give them (if you can call it advice) I’m sorry to you all. I feel like I’m letting Kathryn down constantly and I’m so sorry.

I’m sorry to everyone for everything, that I’ve let you down, made you cry, made things worse and just being me I’m sorry to you all.

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